This is the day when we were at a restaurant and once we received our food, there was too much going on for me to actually focus on eating. My mother then realized something was off about me.
In kindergarten I was slower than the rest of the kids in my class . I didn't understand the basics of math or why I was always getting yelled at by the teacher for not listening.
On this day I hit my forehead on a pole, which increased my ADHD because of the frontal lobe of the brain trauma.
This grade is when my grades started to decrease, and I started to become less focused and less organized.
There were some changes in my life, but this was one of my major changes that has affected my life since this day. My grades were at their lowest, my social abilities were growing weaker, I didn't understand why I was doing so bad.
This is the year when my life went from bad to even worse. From the moment my sister became introverted to the moment she took those pills. My sister's attempted suicide made my ADHD go out of control. I started having paranoia and anxiety.
The anxiety and the paranoia led me into something even worse. Depression. The year 2016 was filled with secrets and lies. I felt alone and scared of the things I was and still am capable to do to myself.
The day I got evaluated for ADHD. After the horrible experiences from the past Summer I thought that 2016 would get better, but it never did.
The day I got prescribed my ADHD medicine, and I never thought about the affects that it might have on my life.
This is when I was on two doses of my medication. This is when the side effects started. The first side effect was loss of emotion, I wouldn't feel anything if something bad were to happen, I wouldn't feel sad, or mad, I would feel nothing. The second and the most effective side effect was loss of appetite. The first two weeks I only ate two things a day. I never wanted to eat at family dinners. I lost 20 pounds in the first three weeks of the month.
This was the day my parents told me that one of my closest aunts had died. The worst part of this experience that i felt nothing for two weeks. Random grief hit me at random times, but I felt nothing. The medication made me feel nothing, all my emotions were gone.
Today I still take the medication and the side effects still have a great impact on my life but I will learn how to live with them soon enough.